i gained 2 pounds...
which has lead to a major downfall of depression.
i dont want to do anything.

right now all i want is to eat chocolate

ok back on diet...
ive had carrot sticks, an apple, rice cakes, coffee, water, cucumbers... so far today!
to be ruined by my trip to the mall later to fufill my twilight fix and my neeeeed for orange chicken! (or is it need for twilight and fix of orange chicken... well either way!!)

i am so far behind on all my internets things... :(
i have to do some catching up at work tomorrow...

had cake decorating today. we did cuppy cakes! it was fun and we learned how to do some cool flowers!!

BLEH i neeed to stop eating!!!!!!!!

god ive been on a bad eating binge lately...
someone stop me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:(

alright so just got wicked hit on by this creepy 52 year old guy at work...
i feel dirty and need to bathe lol.

speaking of being hit on....
mindi and i were at hot topic on friday night and the kid that works there was wicked hitting on me too! but that was ok because he was like my age and was pretty hot! hopefully i can go to the Twilight listening party there and see him because it seemed like he was begging me to go... lol

yesterday was eventful...
went to the fire prevention thing at the bandshell which is always a place for photo ops. it would have been more fun if it wasnt so damn windy!
then we went to the scavenger hunt with Mikey and Matthew. it was alright... a nice walk down main street... i love seeing all the fall window displays! then we went to make gingerbread haunted houses... (well they were made of graham crackers) .
Afterwards at home I made a carrot cake with homemade creamcheese frosting for Nana's birthday (which was yesterday)! We also had put flowers up at her grave on the way home from the fire fighter thing.
the cake was good! Roy and I were the only ones who had a piece of it yesterday...

but anyway... today is pretty chilly out. definetly need to bundle up if you want to head outside!

going to Mindis tonight to work on makeup for our halloween costumes!
im so excited... a night out with out X! yayy!
and i cannnnnnnnot wait until halloween....
i just need to like stop eating so that i can be sure that my costume will fit...
last night i was on a candy binge! gummy bears, laffy taffy, fruit snacks, 100 grand, oh henry, take 5, goobers, raisinettes........ bad times. but it was all so good.
i immediately regretted it... but its over with now.
im trying to do so much better!
NEED MORE WILL POWER DAMMIT!!!!!!!
it would be so much better if the meer thought of salad didnt make me want to vomit.
but i guess thats what happens when its all you eat for 3 months... :(

anyway....
at work now so i guess i should get to doing some actual work...

i have an actual bedroom now...
not just a room witha bed in it and clothes thrown about!
i am so excited!
yesterday i did a huge cleaning of my room and bought a new bed set and curtains!
it looks so relaxing...
all it needs now is some wall decor and accessories!
yayy

WW Progress

today will be full of cake decor and party planning and make up and babies...
it should be fun!
Mindi and Jon are coming down this afternoon so we can get working on the previously stated!

yesterday X played in the sand for the first time... he didnt really eat that much which i was suprised but he just crawled right up the "mountain" of sand that Mikey and Matthew have. and he started playing right along with them... digging and all!
it was cute!

oh yeah i never said...
i bought SPANX to just make sure that my costume fits!!!!!
and i bought some fishnets to go with it!
CANT WAIT!!!!!

i dont love him

god i am way too freakin nice....... i just told some patient that i would meet her here tomorrow at 1 so that she can get her glasses and wont have to wait until tuesday. i wont even be getting paid for that. WTF is wrong with me. TOMORROW IS FREAKIN SATURDAY........ dammit!

Bakin'

baked my monkey cake for the wilton class tomorrow night. and the frosting i made this morning. IT IS YUMMY!!!!
So we shall see how class goes tomorrow night, last week was pretty damn boring!
We are learning roses soon so yayyyy!

Vamp

so because of my obvious obsession with Twilight... i decided to go as a Vampiress for halloween...

this is the costume i just bought... hoping that it fits and i look as awesome i think im gonna! i gots the teeth and the make up and everything so i am very excited!
Roy is going as a Vampire as well!
and we got Xyander a bat costume!
its gonna be adorable and awesome!!!!


did some digi scrapping today...
ill post some pages when im not freezing...
i need to take a HOT shower and go read Breaking Dawn!!!!!! hehehehhehehehhe

today

Today has been a little productive... which we all know is odd for me... I AM SO DAMN LAZY!!
I actually went through all of Xyanders clothes and pulled out stuff that didnt fit him anymore... I also dicovered that he doesnt have a lot of pants... which sucks. but hes got enough shirts to wear every day for over a month! lol
I also picked up the living room and cleaned his room.
I want to get some scrapping done too but I am wasting his nap surfing the internet.... oh well.
im trying to do better on my diet... i have lost a total of about 72 lbs since X was born. yayy me!!! hehehe im doing pretty well today but we will just take it one day at a time. Weight watchers is definetly helping me see how much crap i was eating...
Well scrapping i must go.

OMG OMG OMG

alright so i finished the big chunk of the work i had to do...
so i decided that id do some web searching...
i stumbled upon a Twilight quotes site...
and of course because im dumb... i started reading the snippets from the next book...
OMG i cant wait to read it......................
Marriage, and Love, and Vampire sex (lol), and *sigh*...

WAKE UP BECKIE!!!!!

Obsession

Twlight...
the entire series has me taken...
I am currenlty 3/4 of the way through Eclipse (the third book) and I never want to put it down. When i read it its like i leave this town and head straight to Forks... with vampires and werewolves and love and war!
I dream of this book and its contents is all i have on my mind lately. its rediculous. I am like inlove with this fictional vampire boy (man)!
Crazy Crazy Crazy...
And I am going to be so disappointed when I finish the series... and more disappointed when the movie doesnt live up to the book.
*sigh* what is one to do........ ill never find someone like Edward :(